I know the school year rhythm is finally starting to soften around me. The mornings don’t feel as chaotic, the afternoons feel more predictable. There’s some comfort in that. There are still crazy morning and busy afternoons, arguments with my kids, frustrations to manage, and relationships to help them navigate. But feeling a little more … Continue reading On knowing what matters…
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On Not Counting Anything….
This is what I know after existing in France for a week. I know I felt light there — in my bones, in my breath, in the way I moved through the world. Life felt easy.Yes, I was there on vacation. I didn’t have to plan meals or manage my family’s routines. That’s an obvious reason why … Continue reading On Not Counting Anything….
On when the magic fails…
I know I showed up. Loudly. Boldly. I spoke my dreams into rooms and rituals. I spent money, took trainings, achieved certifications. I tried every angle.I know I wanted it so badly to work—the hustle, the magic, the manifesting.I know I did the vision boards and the moon circles and the candles. I did the … Continue reading On when the magic fails…
On closing doors…
This is what I know. I know I don’t really want to do this anymore.Not like this. Not here. Not in this shape that asks me to convince people that birth can be better or that I'm damn good at what I do, even if I don't fit the mold so much of Texas asks … Continue reading On closing doors…
On leaving a mark…
I know I want to be remembered.I want a legacy, a community, a mark that says, I was here and I mattered.I know I envy the people who build big circles around them—rooms full of students, loyal clients, familiar faces who show up again and again.I know I want that too. Or at least, I think … Continue reading On leaving a mark…
On knowing when to call it…
I’ve spent a long time hustling—pouring my heart into birth work, chasing some dream of making it matter enough. Make enough. Mean enough. Be enough. But lately, I’m sitting with the truth that this version of it—this constant on-call, always-available, scraping-by energy—hasn’t been giving back to me. Not financially. Not emotionally. Not spiritually. I'm constantly frustrated with … Continue reading On knowing when to call it…
On feeling things…
I've been trying to process through a lot of feelings and emotions lately. I partly blame my youngest daughter. She's been having "big emotions" recently and is struggling to understand how to manage them, both in her head and in her body. It results in a lot of tears most of the time. And I … Continue reading On feeling things…
Use. The. Clutch. 