I think one of the only awesome features of being an adult is getting to do whatever the hell I want to. We have a family code that says "As long as you're not hurting yourself or someone else, you do you." Basicallly, have fun and don't be a jerk. And once I got out … Continue reading On doing what I want…
Life
On growing up and staying the same…
I think one of the strangest realizations to come to as I edge closer to parenting a teen is that some things never change. My kids will get home from school, drop their stuff in the mudroom, beeline to the snacks, and grab their iPads (to talk to their friends...whom they've seen all damn day). … Continue reading On growing up and staying the same…
On wondering if it’s working…
You know what's a nightmare? This whole millenial thing of "reparenting oneself" while also raising children. Therapy is too expensive for all of us to go at once, so we default to letting our kids get professional help while flailing spectacularly ourselves. Neat. I often feel like I have zero skills to be allowed to … Continue reading On wondering if it’s working…
On getting through the pain…
I dropped five pounds of frozen chicken on my foot this morning. I wish I was kidding. The day definitely started rocky, to say the least. Getting my youngest out of bed and ready to go can be a real nightmare some days. She has a way of turning the smallest things into a crisis … Continue reading On getting through the pain…
On knowing what matters…
I know the school year rhythm is finally starting to soften around me. The mornings don’t feel as chaotic, the afternoons feel more predictable. There’s some comfort in that. There are still crazy morning and busy afternoons, arguments with my kids, frustrations to manage, and relationships to help them navigate. But feeling a little more … Continue reading On knowing what matters…
On Not Counting Anything….
This is what I know after existing in France for a week. I know I felt light there — in my bones, in my breath, in the way I moved through the world. Life felt easy.Yes, I was there on vacation. I didn’t have to plan meals or manage my family’s routines. That’s an obvious reason why … Continue reading On Not Counting Anything….
On when the magic fails…
I know I showed up. Loudly. Boldly. I spoke my dreams into rooms and rituals. I spent money, took trainings, achieved certifications. I tried every angle.I know I wanted it so badly to work—the hustle, the magic, the manifesting.I know I did the vision boards and the moon circles and the candles. I did the … Continue reading On when the magic fails…
On closing doors…
This is what I know. I know I don’t really want to do this anymore.Not like this. Not here. Not in this shape that asks me to convince people that birth can be better or that I'm damn good at what I do, even if I don't fit the mold so much of Texas asks … Continue reading On closing doors…
On leaving a mark…
I know I want to be remembered.I want a legacy, a community, a mark that says, I was here and I mattered.I know I envy the people who build big circles around them—rooms full of students, loyal clients, familiar faces who show up again and again.I know I want that too. Or at least, I think … Continue reading On leaving a mark…
On knowing what to keep…and what to leave.
Being a doula asks a lot of me. A LOT. It asks for my nights, my weekends, my plans, my projects.It asks me to put my family second sometimes. It asks me to hold the weight of other people’s experiences, often at the cost of my own spontaneity, rest, and freedom. Sometimes even my own … Continue reading On knowing what to keep…and what to leave.
Use. The. Clutch. 